aku nak balek shah alam esok. sambung kehidupan sebagai pelajar.
3rd semester = 8 subject = serious business (or study harder) i have to get myself ready mentally. i don't want my result during diploma comes haunting back. i want better numbers. i want to be proud of myself and see people around me felt the same thing. i told myself several times about this. i know my parent aren't that proud of me. they just happy that im graduated. i can tell from their face and i want to change that.
haa~
i always have this dilemma of getting good result. and it related with my younger sister who always get flying color during exam. while me? she just that average girl that have nothing really standout. as sisters we always envy each other but that is nothing serious to concern about. we just respect each other of having advantage that another don't. but that still does not make me realize to work harder and beat her.
by now i already understand my way of studying and i always do note about lesson that i learnt. but that spirit of study doesn't consistent until the very end. i start to lack out, lazy to make the note, enjoy doing nothing than studying and many ridiculous things i do. which i allowed it during my diploma times. but not now. not when im doing my degree.
what the use of studying if i can't get the result i wanted? my parent money are wasted if i don't utilize the time i have on studying. its not that im saying that i can't have the fun. im just remind myself to not have fun until i forget how important my degree are.
i know i can still have fun after the final ends. that is more sweeter after all hard work you gave. i have once taste that experience and it been a long time since i felt it again.
p/s: this is my reminder of me that always forgetful about things~
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