working VS studying

malam 15hb to be exact aku telah menggantikan 4 orang waiter sebab dorang benti mengejot. i don't know about their problem but since im around, i should be a helping hand. another surprise to add is~(drumroll)


abang buat air benti gak ari uh. whats wrong with these people??aku rase dorang da xde manner arr..even kedai makan aku. opps~kedai makan ayah aku xde la besar macam syarikat yang dalam tb sampai kena bg notis bagai nak benti. tapi bagi ar warning awal2 korang da tak minat da nak keje. business is tough but the people inside it is far more tougher to satisfy!


despite all that shit that happening~ banyak gak customer yang datang semalam. alhamdullilah. but it really REALLY get out of hand. mane nak layan customer yang nk order. tunggu dorang pikir nak makan ape. nak antar makanan dorang. tambah ape yang patot. amek order lagi. kena masok kan bil dorang dalam komputer. layan bile dorang nak bayar. cakap sori yang aku pon tak tawu bape kali da aku cakap malam uh. make sure sume customer dapat ape yang dorang order. kemas meja. lap meja. basoh segala ape yang patot kat blakang. kua kan daily sale report. imagine aku buat sume di atas berulang-ULANG kali. except yang dua last uhla. haa. tulis pon aku da mengeluh


lutut mengegel. tekak kering. tangan da lenguh. baju basah+kotor(jangan tanye kenape). kaki da nak cram. tapi tak tawu kenape aku tak mengeluh mase keje. emm~ im so determined to work and get it done. tapi haa! ne makan dy. esoknye aku bangun nak dekat kul3 petang. aku xsedar aku bole tido selame uh. nasib baek ibu xmarah. maybe dy paham. im appreciate money now more than ever. aku memang tawu susah tapi not to that extended level. aku memang respect ayah aku sebab dy keje xbenti tok ktowang.


ibu bagitahu aku reason dorang benti sebab ayah tak bayar gaji. tapi bukan tak bayar langsung. ade 20% je xclear lagi. people sometime can be really insensitive about others. ayah aku tengah ade money problem. dy keje kontraktor and he suppose to get his payment after he finish the project given. but some people that responsible to make the payment just hold it and give million reason to my dad. and fyi-ayah aku guna wet dy dulu tok bwat projek. he hold a title of bankrupt person because the loan he made for business long time ago and the business not a success ending. aku tahu ape kekurangan orang yang da declare bankrupt ne. and im not ashamed of that. he earn really hard for the money he hold.

we are going through a very TOUGH life situation. time macam ne takde sedare nak datang tolong. tapi bila ktorang senang dulu sume berlumba mintak makan free. as far as i remember, business and family i different entity. it should be separated. i keep praying that my family gonna be allright like we used to be.


p/s: i hope the new year will bring joy to my family and my beloved dad!

aku lupa blog aku

ok kalo blog ne bole jadik bilik aku. da macam2 binatang perosak stay. tapi aku baru ingat blog ne. setelah dibersihkan, resolusi tahun ne aku nk try tulis sebanyak yang bole. kalo bole un9 lah.


anyway~




aku xpernah involved dengan tech world. facebook pon da bole bela tarantula sbb da xtwu nk on9 bwtpe.(kenape tarantula?sebab ade member pernah bela and his pet buat sarang sangat banyak kat dalam bekas) anyway, fb aku sampai my sis yang online cuz dia nak men games. tapi takot jugak cuz my sis pernah tanya tak takot dy hack ke??siot punye adek. i just believe in her....sister bonding i guess. she play mine for her own benefit anyway. aku da tak boleh masuk game-game ne. ceh matang da~hehh


But i starting to find blog interesting. having your life experience turn into writing in the same day(if possible). or just thought that i want to share. which i can still read it when im old. i know im a write person. because i prefer to write my feeling out rather than express it face to face..~ahaha


I start reading my younger sis bl0g(secretly). later, i got introduce with more famous blogger and enjoy their writing of their life that they shared or just a topic that brings back memories that almost all of us would experience it or interesting place to eat. which then slowly something in me wanting to do the same without i realising it..~ although the fact i enjoy writing, i may dont have enough time to sit in front of my silver book. and honestly i really dont even know how to edit or put anything..just~


It would be nice if i can read my life experience. aku student retail management yang masih blur in determine what future that await. but love of being surrounded by jolly friends and never realise that my age da leh kawen.(ahaha) and i remembered that when im studied accountancy, ade student banking (kot) get married and pregnant!! time tuh aku baru 20thun kot??i think im still young and so many that i want to achieve before settling down with a man. it would be different lifestyle between single and married woman. aku rasa bukan sekarang~


Eh macamane leh masok bab kawen ne. hmm...berangan beshla, xde modal ape pon. idea je~anyway im grown matured compared to my earlier self during diploma. it affected many things in my life as well as myself. i just hope that the changes are better and let me be a good daughter as i used to object everything my family decide for me when im still in highschool.


yeah, orang selalu cakap budak agas or zaman mereka yang baru nak "naik". haha. naik ape pon aku tak sure...tapi darah memang senang je nak naik time uh...thankful to have patient parent and at the same time, the most sporting mom and dad i ever wish for..~


p/s: ari ne valentine dan pekerja restaurant ayah aku ramai xdatang. haishh (_ _||)

having this weird lurve

love are so sweet when we are happy with our partner. but when we fought. and i meant a really serious fight. sometimes i start wondering whether he da one for. how cud he hurt me so bad. when i heard rihanna song title "cry" it seem a story that connected to my love life. i NEVER let my feeling so attached to my lover. 


but with him. it seem so different. i HATE smoker. but he smoke. i cant change people for who they is. that not love. and he give me so much love. pampered me so much. know my favourite so well. what else i cud ask from him?? but my life not a fairytale. happy story. we do fight. and i realise we fight over silly thing. 


it just not me to tell people even him who i message with. or who called me. but he asked me o do that. he said that he trust me. and when we sit together and talk about it. he always has the g0od point. he do tell me bout his girl-friend. but im not really care. cuz i know he love me and adore me. he not handsome or macho kind of guy. but he has his own unique charm and cuteness. he always tease me. give me time-out w/o him to do whatever i wanted. so i let him take his time when he needed~


he complete me. he know how to talk to me when im down or mad. but he always do this thing that i hate but love. it hard to describe. its like u kinda love the thing he do but then u think it over and u wish if it just not happen. i can talk ol day about him. how he talk. i never be like this before. is this my true love? cuz if so. please let him stay with me~