these few days i felt so irritated with people that once i think they have my respect as older people. but the attitude that they show. sadly it didn't picture their truth self. i don't know whether i'm wrong or not. my parent said i didn't have to express everything on air. on that part i know i'm wrong. i shouldn't let my anger get the best of me. but things that happen cannot be undone. those people attack me (i can say that as they didn't leave me alone) with hurtful word, advise like they never done wrong in life.
hey~
i can accept it openly if people scold me with respect. i'm a human too. and even though i'm young they should have choose the better way to correct my mistake. i'm having mixed feeling after this event happen. i can't never see them like i'm used to. i cannot predict how this thing gonna end up. but i hope it something that i can face.
yes. i'm angry at the first place but then i realize. i'm a type of person that don't get mad for too long or any emotion. i can move on and accept thing as they are. but when i am in that state. i can't tell what i done with the influence of my emotion. they said i'm young to interfere with their affair. but when it comes about family. if one of my parent get hurt. they should ready for payback.
maybe i don't know the full picture but i can tell by what i see. they didn't be fair and so judgmental. even for any reason they don't have the right to act that way. this has silently happen and grow bigger and become a serious matter. and i just add the spark. for my mistake i already make an apologies even to people that i doesn't have reason too. if that can make them calm then its i don't mind. but the reaction i expected is not what i get. if they don't want it then i have nothing to say. its tiring to be mad and angry. i already enough of them. i can't fake my face or smile when i met them. but i don't expect them to be around for a little while. that can buy me some time to forget (which i don't have the idea how)
anyway..
my semester break gonna be over and i'm so anxious to start learning again (this spirit only last first few month) as i think i'm gonna explode staying at home doing nothing (kerja rumah tuh tak kire la kan). and it been almost two month since i last met "incik chenta". we will met soon okey~ but what i can expect is. i'm gonna taking more subject and study harder than 1st semester i've been there. please dear Allah help me through this tough road.
p/s: i thank every people that being a helping hand throughout my life, study and bad days!
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